I am reaching the hard moments of my weight loss journey. I feel like giving up, I feel discouraged and down. But, I know I should certainly keep on until my journey ends.
Two things make my weight loss journey very difficult: my metabolism and my eating profile.
I have a fragile metabolism. I gain pounds as easily as I lose them. When I lose two pounds today, I should not rejoice because if tomorrow, I do one single diet error or just let it go a bit, a tiny bit then I get the two pounds back. If I really want to lose pounds and to keep the extra pounds off, I should constantly be and remain strict with myself. It is not encouraging at all to know that!!! Lot of exercises, diet control to lose few pounds and just a bite or a failure to get them back.
The other bad news is that I am an emotional eater. This is the big issue. And the most difficult part to have control over. When I am stressed, nervous, sad, depressed, and the list goes on, I eat to comfort myself. It is particularly a battle I am trying to win this week. I am not in my best mood and many times, I had to think hard not to get something to my mouth. And each time I stop myself, I get very frustrated. For so long, I have seen in food a comfort and it is so difficult to change that habit. This morning again, I had to talk to myself not to eat or chew and swallow food for comfort…..
Sigh! I still want to end my weight loss journey but I am afraid because I don’t get any control over those two ennemies…..