“If only. Those must be the saddest words in the world. “
Four years ago, I made a decision for which today, I am paying the consequences. Only God knows how hurtful this experience is. I thought feelings of sorrow were harder to endure until I started feeling regrets.
I regret I chose to please my heart and reject the alarm my intuition was popping up. I regret I was so lenient , so blind and so dumb. I regret I let so many years pass before acting. I regret I am the sensitive and loving and caring person I am. I regret I was such an idealist. Where was my reason? What happened to my resourcefulness? I am screwed. For once that I let my guards down, I am paying an expensive price for that. Hummm, I can tell you it is pricey!
If only I could draw back and change the hands of time. If only I could erase that part of the story. If only I got power over certain things….. Unfortunately, If is used for assumptions and suppositions. I have to face the reality no matter how hard and sad and cruel it is.
I have learned my lesson, let me move on while life is going on….