Nightmares…cold sweat…heartbeats’ acceleration…. I am living my pains through my sleep.
My subconscious intensifies my reality and my sleep becomes unbearable.
I wake up shaken and oh so shocked. Confusion strikes and I blame myself for not yet being over that phase.
I am in dire need of some comfort, just a hug- one hug could reassure me but I look around and find nobody- bitter reminder that I am alone. ALONE!
I seek solace in my pillows as if their warmth could replace any human consolation. Delusion! I fall apart crying then I try to fight the rebel tears pouring out….
Hopeless, I stand up, face my reality and go on…in pieces but alive…